In the dreadful place of greyness
Some far dungeon of the soul
Where we lock away the memories
Never spoken, never whole.
In that place the body carries
Terrors which it cannot name
And we feel ourselves grow tighter
With old helplessness and shame.
Shadows on the mind’s projection
Out of focus, oddly clear,
The deep waters of rejection
Where our monsters reappear.
Where the flesh, made taut, remembers
Every pain the mind can’t hold.
Carries, like a cup of acid,
Wounds untended, fear controlled.
Never speaking, never showing
Primal dread that roils inside:
Half ignored, half overwhelming,
But we tamp it down with pride.
We are legion, walking wounded,
Sisters, brothers, lovers, friends,
Pilgrims to the heart of mercy,
The grace-place where torment ends.