Bonhoeffer again

When a man really gives up trying to make something out of
himself-a saint, or a converted sinner, or a churchman, a
righteous or unrighteous man, ... when in the fullness of
tasks, questions, success or ill-hap, experiences and
perplexities, a man throws himself into the arms of God...
then he wakes with Christ in Gethsemane. That is faith, and it
is thus that he becomes a man and Christian.
... Dietrich Bonhoeffer (1906-1945)

Yep. I cannot make myself into anything (except as a sham cardboard cut out). The only reality I ultimately have is how much of my me is connected to God. The rest is mere formalism, and building houses of cards that one real breath will send flying. Me in God's arms, being carried through whatever I have to be carried through to bring me to Him .. that is reality!